stupid!

aaaaaahhhhh! what would you do if you've done the most stupid thing in your life!!!!! aaaaahhh! crucify me! well honestly it was just as quick as a snap and just like that everything is wiped out! well ganun talaga.. pero hindi ko ginusto!!!! kasi kasi kasi aaaaaaaaahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!! panu yon?! that's what you get for not thinking before acting.. actually i shared my kagagahan to my friends last night! aba natuwa ang mga gagu..i was really like that daw eversince and they find it nice coz everything about me is returning into place.. i remember one of them saying "binago mo nga yan hindi naman ikaw.. anu yan forever kang in control despite the fact na its not your nature.." pero diba.. if that attitude of mine will ruin me.. might as well bury it ayt.. ?! punyeta sunog na ko! aaaah! i'm soo confused.. well so much of that.. andyan na eh.. just expect the worst and things will get back to normal! ooooh! its said and done.. i went out last night with two of my bestEST friends.. as in we've been friends for 14 years and i just can't absorb that one of them is getting married very very soon.. isn't that stupidity also...at 22 you're getting married.. social suicide.. pero masaya sha dun eh.. well i hope she is.. i'm really the bad conscience when it comes to giving advice because i really stress out things that's happening in reality.. i just hate it when i asked my friend if there was ever a chance when she asked for extention because she needs to enjoy more her being single.. the guy answered: "ano pa bang saya kailangan mong maranasan?" AS IF!!!! no one! as in no one! can supply all the happiness to one person.. no one has the ability to make one complete.. hindi lang ikaw ang tao sa mundo.. and hindi lang ikaw ang kailanganng maging mundo! selfish assfuck! and personally i don't expect someone to make me feel complete.. make things alright is a more preferable term but making ones life complete is not feasible..simple lang naman eh.. how can you feel complete with someone when you alone cannot make yourself complete..cge nga? wala namang ganyunan sir... it's not fair.. what was he like when he's 22 huh? well he's turning 30 and my friends is just turning 22 two weeks from now.. he had his time then.. can he at least give my friend more time to experience her singlehood.. fair naman yun eh! and besides guys don't run after time biologically speaking.. eh girls nga its risky for them to bear a kid when they reach the age of thirty.. o! lets say you graduated 20.. there's how many? 6-8 years for you to build your own career.. do the things you want to do for yourself alone.. be stable with your own money.. fucking A! that's too short actually life is too short for me sa dami ng gusto kong gawin..unless your dream is just to be a plain housewife.. wel i know my friend.. bata pa lang kami tarantado na yun! as in! then cnabi nya samin kagabi.. "ndi ba kayo masaya na binago nya ko...?" punyeta wala namang mali sa kanya eh..she thinks that she wasn't fine being her kaya kailangan nyang magbago totaly.. adjustment is fine.. you need that to compliment each other pero drastic change my God naman! how selfish can he get! look fo someone who matches his criteria.. hindi yung magbabago sha ng tao.. unfair yun.. he never gave my friend a chance to at least have her own identity.. i want to save her.. pero its too late.. reservations are made and the date is fixed..