Colors In My Dream

I had a wierd dream. It involves an actor and 2 actresses. It sounded english, british english. A magazine, the likes of TIME or NEWSWEEK. In the dream, I am about to answer few questions in the magazine, I flipped over a page where there was an image of a woman covered with grass and leaves, it was like one of the sculptures of edward scissorhands, looking up on the sky and her arms are folded and hands almost touching her head, she was like shampooing herself, then there were purple lilies surrounding her, but it felt like fairies flying around her. I also remembered spilling the words 40km/hour. Saw a drawing of a hummer, the car, and another car which I couldn't remember, telling the actor that he was the happiest everytime he's drawing those cars or answer that particular section of the magazine. It also sounded as if we are solving a physics question, because it involves velocity (40km/ hour). It's wierd and it felt wierd when I woke up. The dream lasted gradually, it's as if I had to do something that I need to execute today since I woke up 9:30 am, pretty early for me and the weather is so great that makes one wants to lie further. The last scene was the fairy. It felt blank but I know that's the end of my dream. I googled the dream and this is what I found out. Beige Everything related with this color denotes neutrality and detachment. There is absence of communication. Black Black signifies isolation and transition period. It shows up conflicts and friction with relations and friends. Blue This dream denotes a great source of inner peace and a symbol of contentment. Brown This is an auspicious color to dream about:signifies freedom, success, money and happy and long-lasting union. Gray Related with a transition period. If clear signifies peace but if dull signifies, fear. Green Growth and serenity. There are projects which you are enthusiastic about. Great pleasures from simple things. Orange The color orange in dreams indicates passion in every aspect of your life. Pink Associated with tenderness and love. You can expect interesting developments in relations with opposite sex. Purple Great aspirations and understanding of visible and invisible realms. Take advantage of your creativity. Red This is an indication of great passion and sensitivity in your emotional relationships. Turquoise Normally indicates new opportunities and the successful completion of projects. Sign of good luck. White People feel they can rely on you. You have an abundance of energy and vitality. Yellow This color is a sign of confidence in yourself and your abilities but will encounter opposition. Fairy Dream Meaning Psychological Meaning: Fairy stories are full of rich psychological symbolism and the telling of them can help children and adults express their innermost fears and hopes. For a man a fairy may symbolise the female aspect of his personality that can be integrated for better psychic balance. Similarly, for a woman a fairy may represent either her femininity or her motherly side. Mystical Meaning: Some cultures believe that fairies are real beings that tend and direct the powers of nature. The Findhorn organisation call them Devas and may have proved their existence by demonstrating that barren land can be made to bloom by calling for their help. In our dreams, we may actually communicate with these elemental powers. Garden Dream Meaning Psychological Meaning: A garden is a promising dream symbol that may show inner growth and stability. Sometimes dream gardens are symmetrical with a central point. This mandala symbol represents the inner wholeness of your true self. Pools, water and fountains show the pure spiritual energies that constitute your nature. This dream may indicate inner healing after a period of discord and unease. Mystical Meaning: Some sources claim that to dream of a garden foretells a marriage to a very beautiful woman or a handsome man Car Dream Meaning Psychological Meaning: Surprisingly, Freud believed that the smooth motion of a car was not a symbol of sexual wish-fulfilment. Instead, it represented the progress of psychoanalysis. A car is most likely to represent yourself and your ability to control your life. Are you a good driver in your dream? If so, you may also be steering the right course in life. However, if you drive badly or have an accident then your unconscious may be warning you that you are making mistakes. You may be driving yourself too hard and heading for an emotional crash. Maybe someone else is driving the car? You may feel that this person, or the qualities they represent, is controlling your life. The dream may be expressing your over-dependence and lack of control. Car Dream Meaning Mystical Meaning: The ancients didn't have cars but they did have carts and the meaning is much the same. One source claims that to ride a vehicle is a sign that there will be changes at home or in business. If your mode of transport is broken then news from a friend tells of trouble. Numbers Dream Meaning Psychological Meaning: Numbers and their corresponding geometric shapes often occur in dreams. They can represent stages of spiritual growth and archetypal energies of the collective unconscious. ZERO: Zero represents the unmanifest void. It is the ineffable vastness of space that is infinite and timeless. Its symbol is the circle, the perfect mandala. ONE: One is the number that initiates action. It may represent the source of life or oneness of all creation. Its associated shape is a point. TWO: Two represents diversity. It is the number of duality and divine symmetry. It represents the union of opposites such as male and female, mother father, yin and yang or heaven and earth. THREE: Considered by the ancient Greeks to be the perfect number, three represents the union of body mind and spirit. Its shape is the triangle, which may represent the creative force. Three can also symbolise the Holy Trinity. FOUR: Symbolised by the square, four is the number of stability and harmony. It may also relate to the four seasons, the four elements, and Jung’s four mental functions of thought, feeling, sense and intuition. FIVE: Five represents the link between the heavens and the earth. Its symbol is the five-pointed pentagram. SIX: Six symbolises inner harmony and perfection. It may be represented by a hexagram or the six pointed Star of David SEVEN: Seven is the symbol of completeness-an idea originating from the belief that the world was created in seven days. It was believed that the soul renewed itself every seven years and hence the belief that to break a mirror will bring seven years bad luck, as mirrors are a reflection of the soul. EIGHT: The Chinese believe that eight is very lucky and brings great good fortune. It can represent regeneration and new beginnings. NINE: In India, this is the number of God and the yogi who will leave the wheel of birth and death. In the West, it is also considered to be the number of eternity.TEN: As there are Ten Commandments the number ten was considered the number of the law Mystical Meaning: Numerology is the study of the mystical meaning of numbers. Originally based upon the Greek alphabet it attributed a number to each letter so that words and names could be studied for their mystical meaning. For example, holy books such as the Bible and Torah are full of numerological references. When the numerical equivalents of a person’s name or birth-date are added together the numbers obtained can tell a great deal about their character, qualities, skills and destiny. The art of numerology has sometimes been applied to dreams to obtain information about the future. The human qualities associated with each name number are: 1. Initiation. 2. Attractiveness. 3. Communicator. 4. Homemaker 5. Experience. 6. Calmness. 7. Philosopher. 8. Business. 9. Freedom. courtesy of http://www.dreamsleep.net/ Very interesting site.

It's Over (whhuu up!!!)

Mark this day 15th of June 2008... My first taste of sweet liberty!!!

5 months and 17 days
169 days
4056 hours
243360 minutes
14601600 seconds

It could have been shorter if I hadn't been that stubborn. 3 days of self assesment gave me an answer to the question I've been avoiding for months. Refusal to reality is a slow motion suicide. It felt lighter but not necessarily good, it kinda sucks actually, but what the hell? what happend really sucks, I cannot twist that fact. At least my excess baggage is tons lighter now. which is a good thing. Just need to fix things that I screwed up and I'll be on the go once again. I hope its sooner more than later.

After everything that had happen and everything that's currently on going... It's hard not to put a mask on so as not to ruin the good vibe. I just miss genuinely smile and laugh again.

Lladro for Sale

Call me art dumb dumb but never did I ever appreciate an expensive piece popularly known as lladro. I find them so sad and gloomy. I do appreciate swarovksi crystal miniatures and English porcelain dolls but not lladro. In this light, I would love to sell our lladro piece and turn it into liquid. It's more practical that way rather than keep it here. This could probably a missing piece of a whole collection so I might as well sell it right?

Another thing, pardon my ignorance but I really don't know how much this piece cost. I guess I have to research on this further so as of the moment, the price is negotiable. Calling all collectors, just drop me a message.

Hassles of Anticipation

Ever wonder what's the worst thing that messes your head? Years ago I thought it was hope, probably because I embraced what The Architect said in the Matrix. "Hope, it is the quintessential human delusion, simultaneously the source of your greatest strength, and your greatest weakness." But then came "The Secret", the hope factor was totally diverted in the positive spectrum that made the word a step towards your aspirations. The whole negative concept of the word "hope" was totally eradicated. which is actually a good thing. If your hopeful, then you're positive.

Now I that I've outgrown the Matrix fever, there's should always be a thing that messes up your thoughts. (or probably its just me because I'm a self confessed nuts) I thought of anticipation. Wikipedia defined it as an emotion involving pleasure in considering some expected or longed-for good event, or irritation at having to wait. Anticipation is neutral, fence-sitter, a gray word! And I f*&$%ing hate this word! What makes it worse? is that you have no idea what to look out for. It could be an answer, It could be a turning point event, It could be realization, It could be a religion, confirmation, yada yada yada It could be anything!

For someone so impatient as Moi! Anticipaction is the suckiest state ever. It's not the lowest point of my life but being in the position of uncertainty that can take some time automates the clock of the bomb inside me. Being in this state makes me shout to the world to just shoot me.

So how to retaliate? You can't! You know why? because it pays to wait. to stay put and wait for the event to happen. for things to iron up, for bombs to burst. When? I don't f@$^%ing know. BUSTA it will happen. BUSTA? it's not even a concrete statement. I can't even define that very irritating word. It's an answer without supporting statement. An answer that doesn't even answers the question on hand.

Anticipation makes me nuts...as in intense insanity attack!

And I'm Back

I'm back! After years of abandoning me very own blog. Believe it or not I've been trying to hack my own blog?!?!? As crazy as it may sound, but its the reality. I guess its because of unhealthy lifestyle = Memory loss? memory gap(both short and long term) HA! but there's this one thing about my memory that I use as a tool in battling with realms and qualms.. and the very powerful and ever famous and my personal favorite SELECTIVE MEMORY. But this is beside my point.

Anyway, good thing I got it back and its mine mine mine! (As if anyone would want to steal this page from me). I was successful in getting it back only to find out that the email I used to register this was may oldest email. I just got panicky when I saw that Blogger is tied up with Gmail already, so I insisted in using my Gmail account to get in but it failed repetitively, trying to mess with the bitchy technology, then I went on and on, I finally decided to give up the gmail addie and started reading the letters in red and the VOILA! I'm in.

Lesson of the story, don't mess with technology, remember passwords, (I'm just not sure if its actually proper to propose 1 password rule?) It pays to read those red letter notes because its the key in solving your techie shitloads! Booyah!

coke...

My days have been rainy… and dilim dilim tas ang gulo gulo ng mundo… though i try my best to keep things in there place, i even started using my planner again to keep track, but still can't see anything, can't feel anything.. feel so exhausted, feel so naked, feel so helpless, feel so alone. i'm so tired, i'm so harassed, feel so empty, feel like trash. i hate feeling scared. i hate the world, i hate myself, don't have anything.. i need you...

what love means for babies

A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?" here's what they got:

"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love." Rebecca- age 8

"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth." Billy - age 4

"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other." Karl - age 5

"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs." Chrissy - age 6

"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired." Terri - age 4

"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK." Danny - age 7

"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy ar like that. They look gross when they kiss" Emily-age 8

"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen." Bobby - age 7

"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate," Nikka - age 6

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday." Noelle - age 7

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friend even after they know each other so well." Tommy - age 6

"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling.He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore." Cindy - age 8

"My mommy loves me more than anybody . You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night." Clare - age 6

"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken." Elaine-age 5

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford." Chris - age 7

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day." MaryAnn - age 4

"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones." Lauren - age 4

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you." Karen - age 7

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross." Mark - age 6

"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget." Jessica - age 8

And the final one -- Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about a contest he was asked to judge. The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child. The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there. When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said, "Nothing, I just helped him cry"

it's really amazing! kids can give the broadest and the deepest meaning of what love is... cute! how i wish when they grow up they can still define love the way they defined it at their age.. i doubt it though... grown ups talk deep shits! hahaha... la lang!

people my age, they don't know what love is... love for them is grabbing everything, getting what they want, all they care is i, me, myself... my way, my time, my decision, my choice... my my my my my.. sometimes when things go out smoothly, they just invent things so that they have the reason to pick a fight.. where's the love here? hell they care.. they just want to entertainment out of their own stories. of course the writer will always be the protagnist...

another thing about grown ups, they don't value the meaning of sorry, they don't see the gravity of saying bye... what more when the word "love" enters the picture...

how i wish they were kids again.. maybe then they could be worth loving... sigh..

mahiya kayo sa bata.. enuf said

gulo ng mundo

you can't have everything
you can't have all the time
you can't please everybody
things don't go out the way you want it to be
your best ain't enough
changing for good makes it worse for the majority

sunog! sunog! sunog!

i saw these lines wrutten in a small piece of green paper on top of my table wondering why my brother placed it there. i'm not even sure it was my brothers' but it did hit me at some point...

struggles of life... yun lang bow!

faceanalyzer

haaay! it's been a while since i last logged on my pc for internet, i've formatted this trash twice already and hopefully things will go on smooth sailing... i checked my friendster and i saw this site where you can have you face analyze... trips lang hahaha
here's the result!
Race Analysis
Race Analysis Explained
100%
South East Asian
0%
East Indian
0%
Middle Eastern
0%
Eastern European
0%
Southern European
0%
Anglo Saxon
0%
Korean/Japanese
0%
Chinese

Gender: FEMALE
Personality Profile
Rank
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Intelligence
6.9
Very Intelligent

Risk
2.2

Very Low Risk
Ambition
6.0
Average Ambition

Gay Factor
1.0
Very Low Gay Factor

Honor
4.1
Average Honor

Politeness
8.8
High Politeness

Income
6.9
$50,000 - $100,000

Sociability
6.1
Average Sociability

Promiscuity
1.2
Very Unpromiscuous

YOUR ARCHETYPE:
Personality Profile:You have social courage and as a consequence are open and extroverted. You are seen as a well known person who is liked and is involved in many social events. You feel confident about your position in social situations and will not hesitate to say what you believe. You do not like too much responsibility, but you do not mind being in the social center. You must know everything that is going on in your greater social circle and spend a lot of time talking to others to find out the latest gossip. You tend to be friendly, but can be criticizing when you see others as thinking of themselves too much. You prefer to work in challenging people oriented jobs where you can compete against others and rise in the ranks. Others usually like you but can sometimes be intimidated by your outspoken comments and criticisms although they do not show it. People tend to feel comfortable around you and respect your opinion. You can use this social weight to get things done for you but usually opt not to call in favours people owe you. Your view of other types You tend to like Boss types and try to get close to them, as they possess the intimidating factor and confrontational attitude that you lack. You regard Academic Types as mostly withdrawn from life and too uppity to interact with. You associate with some Blue collar and White collar types, and find that these are the people that mostly want to hang around you. You see Artist types as attention seekers and are often the person to criticize them. For this reason, Artist types envy and fear you. You may enjoy the risk taking personality of Gambler types, but you also think that they are loners. You see Drifter types as social dropouts. Other types' view of you Boss types like you but they dont always trust you. Academic Types have very little in common with you, therefore they avoid you. Artist types tend to avoid you because you may attack them verbally due to their personality differences. White and Blue collar types like interacting with you, and they sometimes envy your charisma. Gambler types may deal with you if they think that you have something useful to offer them. Drifter types may associate with you, but they generally believe that your archetype is stuck up. Alpha Charmer: -More ambitious than Charmer Expected Occupations: Corporate Executive, Real Estate Agent, Politician Charmer: -More fun-loving than Alpha Charmer Expected Occupations: Sales representative, Teacher, Aesthetician, Hair Stylist, Artist, Actor, Social Worker, Manager

try it out! it's interesting!